Was it meant to really..

You ever come at that point in your life, with the people you are associated with and suddenly everything falls to utter shit? Do you ever look at the aftermath and just think: "What happened? What did I miss?" or "Where did I go wrong?"
Seems to me it tends to happen a little more often than it should. He left me today, I know why, yet I don't understand and I do. It pains me, it really does, that it ended up being something, I dare say, so easily tossed aside?
I have 1 day a week, if that, to myself. It is a rare time I have time to myself to where I can have some private time. I can call Pet easily, the house knows him and they know if I am calling him it is for "gaming" purposes or questions about computers. It's not so easily explained away why I would be calling him.
I guess I never quite made myself clear about the eggshells I have to walk on in my house.

Til next
M.V.

A lovely state of WTF

Well another well has gone by.
Yet again.
School, work, nothings changed.
My poor pet misses me. I feel badly that I cant be there for him, but this is a definite training in patience for him.

Master comes out soon. Well, not soon, but in a few weeks. I am looking forward to dinner together. It's going to be fun! :) I'm positive he's looking forward to it as well.

I want to write. I have no idea what I want to write about though. I know I want to write an addition to McLain Theory but the going of it is a smidgeon tough. I cant figure out how to make the separate scenes I have in my mind work together. I will make it work though. I've got to. I wont be satisfied until I do.
In any case.
This next week should serve interesting. Ive got to find a way to try and get fridays off of work.
Til next
M.V.

Been a while

Been a few days hasnt it? How sad.
Oh well.
Work goes alright for me. Got into trouble over my anger issues on the phone. I'm sorry that I can't help that I am surrounded by idiots. So I'm looking for a new job soon. I cant stay in that call center. Yeah its GREAT pay ect ect but I cant honestly take that kind of stress anymore.
Pet has been so sweet. When I told him that I got in trouble he was supportive of me. I like talking with him about things, he genuinely listens. It's nice. And he doesn't try to say "well, they have a point..." bah.. I vent because I want someone on my side! It's nice to have that.
I haven't told Master yet. He'll probably react the same as Pet. Supportive and sweet. Oh, he's coming out to see me in Sept! I'm so excited! I hope to be in good shape for him. Which for me means loosing a great deal of this extra weight.. ech...
Anyway. I have a good portion of a story yet to edit so I am off for now.
Til next
M.V.